Another birthday that you never got to see. That we never got to celebrate. Today should of been my husbands 36th birthday but he will forever be 32. I've spent the day alone locked in a world of doing not an awful lot. Tonight I have to wrap Christmas presents for his family that never … Continue reading When the tears don’t come but the heart hurts
It's that time again. I've been summoned for a health assessment as part of my benefits. It's more than two weeks till the appointment and my anxiety is already high about it and my ocd is telling me all sorts negative. I'm scared of loosing my benefit and having to fight without it.
Understanding that when I get thoughts of time to go away for the day. Get out the same repetitive thing, my head is shouting for time for me. Whether that be a massive walk along a beach and then lunch or an hours bus ride into a city centre that I can get lost in. … Continue reading Listening to my head
What do you do when the tests come back clear ? ........... answer eat toast. All the tests so far have come back clear and it's is unsure why suffering. Procedure today didn't show anything that wasn't supposed to be there with other sections getting sent away for testing. I'm now coming to the conclusion … Continue reading What do you do when tests come back clear?
Early 2000 I was told I was good at photography and should pursue it further. A year later I was away at college studying a course in photography. Every level new and old. I was working in a darkroom and dealing with film as well as the more up to date for the time slr. … Continue reading Camera – belief
I'm learning something new this year. I had worked on a knitting pattern with my gran when I first got diagnosed. A jumper that was never put together but was used as a distraction to what was happening at the time. Now as I work my way through this pattern - I only know two … Continue reading Learning something new
This year I have decided that I would write a list of every book I read in the year. And see if that spurs me on to read more. It has been something that I wanted to do - read more. I think that my mental health in the past has stopped me from getting … Continue reading Reading more books